Day 6 Grade:B

Today was a bit of a blur. I'm having a hard time remembering my interactions with the kids at this moment. Oh Right! I went with Prof Cirdan to the grocery store, and it was actually fun! He asked me when we could spend some time just the two of us, and I said I wasn't sure, but that it sounded nice. Then when I remembered that I needed some groceries, it inspired me. I enjoyed his company. It's a wonderful reminder that I actually do love my son...Wha? Oh! Ummmmm, I mean Prof.

I did a lot of cooking this afternoon and evening, and I enjoyed it very much. I made homemade pizza (OK I bought the crust as dough, but I baked it all!) and simultaneously baked two pumpkin pies. The oven was rather full, and the pies had to bake at the wrong temp for longer than they should have, because I got distracted, and forgot to take them out on time. But the pizza was a big hit, we all ate too much, and then after that was done we ate a whole pie between us. Which turned out fine despite the mistakes in baking. I whipped cream to top it of course. It's late now, because we're having a big family breakfast tomorrow, and I wanted to get everything ready. So, I got the hash browns diced and par-boiled, the pancake batter is in bowls of wet and dry ingredients waiting to be combined, and the bacon will be oven baked. My sister and her family are coming and they are bringing extra maple syrup, and blueberries. It's gonna be tons of fun! And a lot of dirty dishes, but that's OK it'll be a blast. 

OK but today...It started well, because Solomon facilitated so I could sleep in. Then we all got to go to a procession for the college here in our town. It's a fun thing to watch people you know process by all dressed up nicely. My professors came and had a wonderful time smiling and waiving to all the people they knew, and all the ones they didn't know too.

I'm working on Loving my job. I'm done talking about it negatively at least for a while, time to attract a good attitude to myself. I have four wonderful children, and they are teaching my every day how to love unconditionally. 

It's hard to love unconditionally, especially because it does NOT mean I let them do whatever they want. It means that no matter what they do, I love them. It means that I have to learn how to draw boundaries for them of what is right and wrong, and guide them to the right choices, hopefully. And yet, they are not grateful for this guidance, and so the unconditional comes in when I am teaching them that something they are doing or just did was wrong. They don't thank me for the knowledge, and I get to learn about loving them anyway!

I'm still figuring this out...it confuses me.... I'm going to bed.