I was not perfect, but I did a really good job, so I get an A-, mostly because I need to leave room for improvement. Zoe is having trouble sleeping. I don't know why. she doesn't seem to have an illness of any kind. But she is needing to have me near her to be able to sleep. so last night I slept on a mattress on the floor with her on her crib mattress next to me. It worked out OK.
I still managed to do a good job with being nice to the kids. After I brought Thea and Cirdan home from School I had several chances to handle their cranky behavior, and I did a very good job! I did not speak to them with contempt, as I am prone to doing. I did not allow them to engage me in arguments that had no solution, but I acknowledged their feelings too most of the time. Thea wrote me a note later about how much she loves me and hopes that we can go out sometime soon. I take that to mean that she had her needs met at least some, and did not feel badly treated. I know this because she often writes me notes in which she expresses her feelings, including notes that say things like "Mama I do not like that you are being mean to me!" and that sort of thing. So, I give myself a high grade for today, and hope that I can do as well on Day 24. I am only managing to post this now, because just as I was beginning to write it, Zoe awoke from sleep and needed me, so I stopped writing to care for her. That improved my grade as well.
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