There were no big blowups or blowouts. Thea and Cirdan both completed their homework with only a little prodding from me. Zoe had a few fussy times, and she seems to have gotten into a very accident prone phase. She does things like go down the stairs with big books that she can't quite hold, and ends up slipping and getting a cut lip. She keeps climbing onto the dining room chairs, and then onto the table. Sometimes, she doesn't quite make it onto the seat of the chair and cries for help because she gets stuck. I keep running around pushing in chairs, and trying to keep her on one floor of the house. But of course other people in the house open gates, and use the chairs (me included!) and she ends up in the same situation again. Well, I guess she's learning, and I'll keep the ice pack handy. Jaden was a sweet boy most of the day, the only hard moments with him were frustration on my part when I stepped out of the car to pick up Cirdan after school, and Jaden's separation anxiety kicked in. It took him a good three minutes after I was back in the car (I had only been out of it for about 15 seconds) for him to calm down. Other than that his fear only amounted to calling me to know where I was in the house a few times. I think that's improvement.
I was reading some of 7 habits of highly effective people, and I'm enjoying it so far. It seems to be describing things that are familiar to me; Patterns of behavior that I notice in myself daily, and want to change but don't know how. Now I'll just have to see if this book has some ideas on how to begin.
I continue to think that I really need to begin in my own head. I had more chances to treat myself with kindness, and for the most part I did OK.
I would like to pick one thing to work on in my external life, that I feel like I can get really good about, like dishes or laundry or vacuuming. I'm not sure what to start with though. Hand me a hard day of little sleep, and it's really difficult to want to keep that task done.
Well I do believe in the human ability to change and improve, and I know that there is little in this life that I have any control over. In fact there is NOTHING that I have control over. But God has control over everything, and He has given me a blessing to be able to use His abilities to do what I can. Choices is one of the things that I can do. I can make good choices. I'll keep trying to make good choices as long as I live.
