I'm not in charge, and that's OK, and just as it should be. I must do good things, because they are from God, and not do bad things because those are from Hell, and I should do all this as if it is me with the power to do it all while knowing it's only God who does all things.
I did OK today. Cirdan took 2 doses of his medicine, and even got through the second round with amazing speed.
I have hit the wall this evening, and I'm frustrated with my physical exhaustion, but I look back on today, and I did try to do good things, and be kind. I made a big breakfast meal, for lunch, and everyone enjoyed that a lot. I had a good mood and attitude about it too, and I think of that as a success. I took care of my niece for about 45 minutes, while her parents went to a wedding, and that was fun. It felt good to be able to give them a baby free wedding (that sounds odd). I did consciously think my "I'm not in charge" phrase a few times today, but not at the best times I could have. It was a good day from my perspective though, and I hope that tomorrow I will also be able to remember that I am not in charge.
